As soon as I have written a blog about the glories of this new season, the unexpected twists and turns of life decided to appear.
Though I am taking it out of context, Shakespeare writes in Sonnet 18 Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer's lease hath all too short a date
This is true. Nothing lasts, and these reminders have made themselves evident this week. Over the weekend, one of our high school seniors passed away due to a car accident. Then, Monday, one of the teachers at our school passed away in the hospital unexpectedly. In addition to all of this, everything in life seems to be whirling around my head like a furious tornado.
I have meetings to plan. I have my regular life to attend to. Every day, I have not been able to make it home from school until around 5 in the evening. Every morning, it is unavoidable that I must rise early and prepare for another day when I know that I will not make it home until 5 again. Of course, these things are not enough. To add to it all, my husband is in the field and I have people wondering why I'm not responding to e-mails about a coffee that is being held. And I don't even know where to begin with a reply. I will r.s.v.p. when I decide if I can make it.
For now, everything is up in the air. It is as if the autumn winds have now begun to sweep me away. I felt, this afternoon, that things had settled, but they haven't yet. I'll have to ride it out. Tomorrow will be busier than any other day. I have to work straight through the day as I am covering a class for a teacher who must be out for the funeral of our former coworker. I am more than glad to do it; I just won't get a break tomorrow at all. There will be a faculty meeting after school. I have to coordinate two more meetings that must be held next week. I'm thinking to myself "You can do it. The time will come. Don't worry." I know time will become available and there is no sense in being annoyed or anything because it is life. Life gets busy. I must remind myself that it will not stay busy forever.
I am obviously finding the time to write this blog. Staying up past when I should be asleep, I am making time to write the blog. I feel the need to write it, though, so I can clear my head. So many thoughts try to spin around in my mind at night and I do not feel at rest until I have released them.
So, all I'm really saying is that it's interesting how we are tested and how the intensity of life can change in an instant.